Asking myself this every day now.

Asking myself this every day now.


Bulimia is taking over my life again

I have no idea what to do.  I’ve had eating disorders on and off since I was 13,  but I thought I was done with bulimia years ago.  In the past two months, since he’s been gone, it all came flooding back.  I’ve been binging and purging at least every other day and dieting the rest of the time.  For some reason food makes me feel safe when I’m the most depressed.  I’m so unhappy nowadays, I feel like my weight is all I live for.  Last time I binged, I promised myself after I purged that it would never happen again.  But I did it again this morning, I cried after I threw up because I feel so helpless and sad and worthless.  Does anybody else feel like this?  Has this happened to you because of a bad breakup, or does bulimia accompany depression?  I just wish there was someone that knows what I’m going through.



To take pics like this in the mirror

To take pics like this in the mirror



Why can’t I be in control?  WHY?!?!

Why can’t I be in control?  WHY?!?!


Do you think SHE binges?

Do you think SHE binges?


Me after binging

Me after binging


THE BODY I FUCKING WANNNNNTTTTTTT!!!!!!!!!!!!!

THE BODY I FUCKING WANNNNNTTTTTTT!!!!!!!!!!!!!